what happened to those days when all i had to worry about was some insignificant test grade in some class that i won’t remember anything from anyway? it seems like as i get older the weight of the world is being forced upon me, and i am completely and utterly unprepared for it. the consequences of my actions are no longer constrained to the very limited, sheltered world of childhood. what i do or do not do now affects what i will or will not do in the future. this prospect scares me. it makes me second guess my actions and keeps me from making any decision with absolute certainty. and no matter what decision i make, i end up regretting it anyway because i don’t live in the now, i live in the what could have been.